for the future me

i got the average score for 402 midterm. that's like 65% correct only. it's damn bad! for a 40% midterm!! mark was being nice when he said the average is "just right for an exam of this type". arrr. i want to die. and..it's a damn slack week..mon free day, tues only got 402 lect, wed holiday, thur free day. that's like a 1.5 day wk -_- sigh. i'm so demoralised. if this is the score after bell-curving, i'll dig the hole deeper. fyi, my msn/fb status now is digging a hole. there are so many things i need to put in it. my face, myself, my 2nd upper, my coffin...

now, i'm even more unsure if i shd continue fighting for what i want. it seems less attainable by the day...

ラベル: spontaneous rant

i so want to fly to japan now

i so want the sem to end now
i so want fyp to work itself out
i so want to land myself in a job just to pay everything off, and that's it
i. so. want. to. ESCAPE!

life is filled with dilemmas. if it seems like the harder choice, it is the right one.

just had the longest fyp meeting (5 hours!)...but other than feeling a lil tired and mind-bogged, i heart my fyp mates. really. after looking at the combi of ppl comprising fyp groups, i think ours will work out pretty well ^^ last yr's feeling of being-in-the-best-project-group-i've-ever-had remains.

thinking of going back my internship company to do part time work next yr, since i will only have 1 module to clear...which effectively renders it a 1day wk.. -_- need $ for grad trip..

speaking of which...(refer to title) I WANT TO GO TO TOKYO! who's with me?? muz start a tokyo grad trip fund and get ppl to contribute le. ^^

saw the F1 test drive today...SO COOL~! now i understand what all the craze and the exorbitant ticket prices are abt! being right beside the zooming cars and feeling the reverberation of the engine and tyres is just not possible on the tv. wow. i was momentarily blown away. not literally, fortunately. ^^

sometimes i think rational = cowardly. cowardly pebs. sigh.

ラベル: spontaneous rant

200th post

VOTE FOR LIN YOUJIA in the Singapore Hit Awards 2008! He is included in:

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woohoo~! voting ends 21 Sept 2359 and can be repeated. so hurry!

ラベル: traffic-stopping event

ignorance is bliss

because it equates to less workload. it has been a rather miserable 3 wks that i didn't blog, primarily because my life is spelt S-C-H-O-O-L now. fyp is nagging me, 402 is confusing me, 475 is boring me, and 434 is just..killing me. i wish it would just kill me in one shot, and not drag my agony across 13 wks, 6 presentations and 2 papers. SIGH. such is life. i'm so divided now. this is probably the sem that i'm involved in sch work the most and yet there is no corresponding gratification! i'm suffering from cognitive dissonance.

but then, it is the make it or break it year..so i just have to find a way of surviving it. SIGH.

i spend so much time on the abovementioned that the simplest things actually seem like a temporary escape..e.g. meals, bathing and standing time on the train (cos then i wun be able to highlight my readings). and of cos now..blogging. what is this??

bleah..dinnertime. yippee.

ラベル: innermost feeling, spontaneous rant