for the future me

i replay conversations, or rather, debates with myself, on whether i'm being overly nitpicking, or if i have unrealistically high expectations. that kinda doesn't make sense already, since i always thought that i have rather low standards with regards to my life and i just live day by day.

but anyway, abt things that i psyche myself to tolerate each time they happen, they are rather trivial and cannot be used to summarise a person per se, but then again, they are basic mannerisms that should have conformed with the norm.

i don't know. i've done this countless times with myself, and i think i just need to talk to someone...to know what's right. i'm not the kind of person who wants to hear my own opinion in another person's voice. i'm just...very confused abt all the possible things i could do and thoughts i could have, that sometimes i'm lost in whatever i was looking for...

and once again, i have only written about the issue and not the context...which is one of the reasons my blog is frustratingly impossible to follow. sorry, work makes me jaded and insensitive to other ppl's feelings..

ラベル: innermost feeling, spontaneous rant