for the future me

these few days have left me feeling rather empty. lazing around, surfing net aimlessly, waiting for stuff to happen from 9 to 6, working OT in a nearly empty office, having mediocre takeaways at home, stoning and watching drama on comp, sleep. repeat for the next 3 days. can't help wondering what else i want to do with my life. what happened to my dreams?

even on the train, the constant escape from reality by sleeping, listening to music etc in a bid to block out the world has finally caught up with me. few months ago, i'd acty bothered to convert videos and upload to my phone, bought books to read, rushed to grab free papers (they knock off really early)...but in the end, i still admit to myself that i didn't feel bored...i felt empty. there was nothing to look fwd to at work, or after work.

to me, it's terrible to have nothing to do or think about. it drains me to have to try and find things to do to kill time. i feel like i'm in the wrong place, at the wrong time. maybe, it's time for a change of environment. and to add in my missing life, one at a time..

macbook! tmr :)

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