for the future me

星期四的确是跟宥嘉合照群体照，还排在最靠近他的位置，而且搭肩拍照。可是在独自回家的路上，不但没有意想中雀跃的心情，而且多了一种莫名的空虚感。这迟迟不解的空虚感到了星期六，那个连下几个钟头的雨的签唱会似乎把我浇醒了。其实崇拜偶像这种事发生在我身上时，我还是比较适合用实际的支持买专辑买改版，在心中默默祝福和鼓励。我不能接受尽管我出席他的每一个通告，但到最后他都不知道我的存在。这种盲目的付出我做不到。一想到不可能跟他有更近一步的认识，就真的有一点 sian diao..不想浪费时间。好不称职的歌迷哦..

至少星期四有合照，星期六也有握到手..其实也可以算牵手，因为是他的左手握着我的右手。。严格来说，握手应该是同手哦..所以我们当时是在牵手哦^^..but 他也牵了很多其他人的手 so.. -_-

anyway, 重点是前两次去捧场都算是近距离的接触..等一下的爆唱会就有点找不到理由去的感觉..hai..

anyway anyway, 想要看到我跟宥嘉的合照要买i周刊哦! 我想应该会在里面. 我会第一时间买来看.^^

ラベル: innermost feeling, juicy update

memory

i found a folder in my comp that was rather hidden, and it made me recall some things that i was shocked that i forgot. sometimes we are so bothered by the unhappiness in our lives that we forget we were once happy. my memory these days are failing me. i sometimes cannot differentiate whether things in my memory are dreams or actual happenings. i need tangible evidence. so if you hope that i remember you 10 years later, you should have a photo of us ready. ~

i watched so many movies lately. OLD movies. lol. thanks to the uob now card. i'm watching movies every monday. so far i've watched incredible hulk, wanted, kungfu panda, get smart, what happens in vegas, driving lessons, fantastic four rise of the silver surfer, half of sweeney todd and i have good luck chuck, bring it on, butterfly effect 2 and thx 1138 1971. i'm so going to watch Pathology! cos Milo Ventimiglia is in it! who's in it with me??? it's R21! it will be my first~ oh and X-Files! and HSM 3! and HBP at the end of the year! ooh i'm making myself look fwd to all these big movies. keke.

on to another groundbreaking news. I'M GOING TO TAKE PHOTO WITH YOUJIA AT TP TMR!! ZOMG!! bombie won the iweekly contest. TOGETHER WITH HIS BRO. so we constitute like 40% of the winners alr. zomg zomg. i've alr picked out my clothes. bombie said i'm mad. zz. i'm just excited. ^^ fate works in strange ways. joel and i were exclaiming over msn this aftn. first about his win, and then abt the second win. hahaha. so funny. will post the photo!!

ラベル: juicy update, spontaneous rant, traffic-stopping event

you know the feeling

the feeling that everything just chooses to go wrong on this random day, without warning, without relent. it even feels like everyone is abandoning me.

feeling empty, and tiny, getting lost, then caught in the rain, getting cranky, and then kena pang seh - what a lot to go through in a day. let's call it murphy's day.

it just feels so unfair sometimes. but like all other times, it just takes some coaxing and changing of perspectives to change my mood. rarrr. isn't this the typical method to pacify a woman?!

i think everything is telling me i need a long road trip/getaway. boohoo.

ラベル: innermost feeling, spontaneous rant