for the future me

we all had a lovely week...cos it was a boss-free week! seriously i think the office functions better..ppl working at their own pace..having their own system..i really do think our combined system is more organised and efficient..shrugs..i dunno.

on another note, C has left..and CP decided to stay in the end. happy for the both of them..i'm sure it was hard to make either decision..but once made..they would have no regrets. so silly..i was quite sad tt time..on R's last day..until J said he's happy for him that he has found a better place. and i realised, yup, i should think like that. (: but with so many departures..would it all evolve to envying those who are leaving? haha.

i guess the difference in mentality between me and the rest is like going on a journey..when you know when it ends, you wouldn't be as resistant. for me, i tend to let frustrations go more easily, since i know i have an "expiry date" (Management, 2008)..and all the problems don't really affect me as much. with the end of the 6-month stint, i can be rid of every shit i've encountered, am encountering or will encounter. but for the rest, i can imagine they have to be more or less watching their back all the time..cos every mistake counts. K was the best example to date. but i can't honestly say it's unfair. just that..it will leave ppl talking. shrugs.

i have 10 more days to write my journal. yay.

new colleagues coming in tmr. i hope i'll have a nice neighbour. and maybe he/she is having the exact same thought right now too.

good luck for exams ppl~ (:

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100th post

but it didn't feel like the 100th post..

4th month in the company..but it didn't feel like it was only 3 months..

3 more ppl are leaving..but i wouldn't have felt it if they didn't tell me..

3 more are coming..but i don't feel like welcoming them..

i don't have exams..but i don't feel any less stressed..

i'm buried in work..but that's when i feel the best..

i'm pebbles..but i don't feel like i am..

i'm down and confused..and i should be..

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helplessness

so many things happened since i last posted that i dunno where to start. but mostly, i had crazy OTs..the latest being 2am.

i don't think ppl understand the purpose of my jobscope..but it's ok. anyway, as april is here, every single listed company in Singapore with their financial year ending in December will be required by law to have their AGM..and AGMs need..annual reports..so, i have to work OT.

i don't think it's weird for interns to work as late as full-timers. i also don't think account servicing is redundant. but apparently alotof ppl out there do. and apparently, alotof com secs, investor relations heads, fin cons etc, only have either authority or common sense. and it's precisely cos of these ppl that everyone below is kept busy..working OT. it's rather disheartening at times, when everyone else sees what is wrong, but the decision maker is blind to it..and the mistake is just being left alone. we're all trying our best for our clients..but do they know it? we can advise them, but will they trust us?

my havas are here, like after a million months. and i'm so angry. i waited so long, and the shipping is still so ex, that i might as well have bought it at num. and the depreciating value during the time that had lapsed while waiting would have been the price difference. gahh.

i've been having these random urges to start a business. but selling what, i dunno. cos i can't stay in an environment that creativity is clearly not possible but which the higher-ups still try to impose. like, most of the time i just don't see the point! this agn, is another case-in-point of the authority-common sense example.

i think, the only thing i want for my bday, is to have company to fly to taipei to watch my youjia's concert. but why are all dreams so unattainable..

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