for the future me

exams..the most torturous, painful and slow-crawling wk of my life is over. OVER! and i'm done with NTU! for EIGHT WHOLE MONTHS! gone are the non-existent shuttle buses (do not doubt the logic of this sentence)! gone are the impossibly steep contours to climb! and gone are the cockups of the various ntu offices! YAY! though i'll miss my cs frens, food and aircon room in ntu, but i'm also looking forward to amoy and tg pagar food! woohoo..overall, good riddance..for 8 mths. i'm finally leading a life. beyond the boundaries of pulau ntu. (:

in yahoo, ebay and mocca auctions/classifieds..for a cheap ticket to taipei. haha. i'm fine with not going, really. if i can't find a ticket. but bombie's whole family is gg..with free SIA tickets! wails! hoping to buy some krisflyer miles or sthg. or some last-minute cmi jetstar ticket. hehez.

yes i know i'm very slow..i'm watching heroes season 1. but they're slowly but surely depleting. i will catch up! and i HAVE to catch up on my naruto too. AND get my hands on some south park. and my dear channel 55...yay..love being spoilt for choice for stuff to watch. speaking of which, i'm stuck between enchanted and lust caution! ok..i think i want enchanted more, really..but i've yet to catch an R21 movie and lust caution makes a great first! cos....tony leung!! hk version of laogong..swoons..

for the whole of exam period i was hooked onto jay chou's movie Secret and its ost. like, i'll keep going to the 斗琴 scene and watch it over and over. haha, ok..what's up with me. well...ESCAPISM, that's what! and then it was Heroes, when it has finished downloading. heh.

in the span of one month, 2 donut shops have opened in bedok central..and they're totally tempting me! one is just directly downstairs and i can smell it from my hse sometimes lor! argh. but NO. i swore not to be part of the donut crowd..cos..cos it just doesn't make sense. no. i will not. why doesn't anyone have the sense to open a stationery shop here for a change!!

from hall 16..i've moved home! with my dearest BaoBam..i'm sure he was rather excited in the cab ride just now. and once agn i'm surer than ever that he would attract more attn than a cheerleader with regenerative abilities.

was looking at 特務J lyrics..and there's this line (which is now my msn nick):
愛情有十誡戒懶戒自卑戒悶戒愛現戒膚淺
愛情有十誡戒宅戒失戀戒煙戒永遠沒主見

let's have a checklist for myself.
1. 戒懶: er, no. as lazy as before.
2. 戒自卑: yup, a little.
3. 戒悶: hmm..quite true, but sometimes it's the other way round..
4. 戒愛現: never was..haha.
5. 戒膚淺: not true! still as 膚淺 as ever!
6. 戒宅: does that mean dun stay at home as often? if yes then it's true..
7. 戒失戀: weird logic..and nope.
8. 戒煙: not applicable.
9. 戒永遠: hmm..not very applicable too.
10.(戒)沒主見: not accurate..in fact it has worsened..

so..this checklist has a 30% relevance for me. how lousy! or am i just too eccentric! haha. shd get bombie to do it too.

lastly, people are finally coming back!! my 2 meis are back! yayyy. time of the year agn to be surrounded by pseudo family! roxy.

ラベル: juicy update, spontaneous rant

can't-mug fever

strangely enough...i've caught it. i invented the term anyway..thru my observations of ppl around me. everyone's not mugging! i feel like i've used up all my mugging fuel for 301 that there's none left..no motivation to mug for the rest of the 5 papers on which i've placed higher hopes on. especially since it was so bad..my worst exam in my whole 2.5 yrs in ntu ever. i hope i'm not subconsciously slipping into depression cos of this..cos i've been rather numb abt it lately..not expressing or experiencing any disappointment or crushed feelings for such a significant failure. oh well. ok. i know..i gotta focus and finish the rest of my 4 papers with great expectations.

such cold days..and nights..i go everywhere with a jacket..and brolly. so troublesome..hate rain during daytime..

plus the aircon in exam halls is like free one lor..i seriously wanna petition that it affects our performance! how to write when your hands are numb and cannot move anymore! either you provide gloves, or open your eyes wide and see all the trembling bodies!

moderation is good. extremism, BADDDDDD.

ラベル: spontaneous rant

我喜欢。。

静静一个人，躺在床上发呆。。
手持一本好书，读到不想睡觉。。
沉浸在剧情里面，死都不出来。。
发现有趣的广告，启发自己。。
抱着一只大大的熊，静思将来。。
和朋友相约，玩到疯。。
只做自己喜欢做的事的自由。。
在我累的时候，被放飞机。。
下雨的晚上，又不用早起的隔天。。
把所有的不开心，交给工作麻木。。
在考试期间，计划考完后的事。。
双方逃避的问题，美丽的回忆。。

真可惜，真可怜。能同时间拥有以上两个情形，已经很求之不得了。想到以前错过的自由，还真不值得。。算了。。就努力珍惜现在仅有的吧！

有些人变得好快。。能影响他的人，还真不是普通的厉害。。

ラベル: innermost feeling

u're stunning,

301. so stunning that time stopped when i read the 1st qn of the exam paper, which is 60 marks and i have no idea what to write. it can be regarded as the most memorable paper of my life man. the extent of its broadness and all-encompassing-ness and thus dunno what is in the scope, that even if it were open book time would still have stopped. see you agn next yr, 301. together with 401.

zhanie. during our lunch. u never fail to live up to your name of never fail to give ppl surprises as to what u do/say/think. woohoo.

can a. with the amt of notes and books and lappies ppl piled on ur tables on sunday nite. how could u stand all that stress??

301 examiner. for when u spoke for the first time, it was time to start alr! fastest exam speech ever.

oas. for giving me 3 5pm papers. well done..

my 301 notes. for being called a stack by ishani when it's not even 1cm thick! and was not of much use for this paper anyway. damnit.

pebbles. for spacing out so much.

ラベル: spontaneous rant

irritated

cos i just finished doing one of the world's most meaningless tasks..deleting slides cos the inconsiderate person who did it somehow has such lack of proficiency in ms ppt that he did not use transitions..so i chopped off abt 75% of the ppt..which still remains at 9.94MB!!

besides exasperation for such lack of ethics..since it's so obvious he didn't do the slides himself..the respect for duffy has just abt increased tenfold..i bet he did what i just did like for all the 10 ppts..sniff..and thinking abt how much more he has to tolerate and interact with tt person than us, i just feel we're more understood..thank you duffy!! i hope no one googles your name and find this!

ok..and happy bday sharon!

ラベル: spontaneous rant

i'm paranoid

alternating between feeling accomplished and panic. since the gauge for whether i'm studying too slowly sometimes depends on the amt of time i ration for it, and sometimes on hearing abt ppl's progress. thanks to zhanie's kind info that she's going for a play AND bday celeb AND tennis, i feel less sinful gg to sharon's bday celebration. haha. what a weak defense.

PR ppl are really different! they're all cheery and well-mannered and u wonder if they ever have bad days. but it's comforting, at least. i mean, there's no reason here to wonder if it's genuine. sincerity doesn't apply to strangers.

i was a true mugger for the whole of last night, and it was partly due to the PR person that lifted my spirits and also clarified stuff. see the good side of PR! but i'm still fiercely passionate abt advertising. like, i feel a strange pride for OpenAd.net...shudders.

nvm. back to mugging! oh, and PI is a headache for everyone!

ラベル: spontaneous rant

what is this!

"This will be a godsend for many financially troubled television groups and commercial networks."

"Adobe-Macromedia Flash technology makes it possible to embed video both within web sites as well as within custom applications such as RSS readers and aggregators as well as within customisable widgets of any kind as well as within traditional desktop applications."

"Flash is everywhere, and with its own sets of idiosyncrasies and limitations Flash video does work."

i thought journalists are supposed to be objective and credible and have better English than the rest of us??

just tell me agn, why we can't stop getting personal?!

ラベル: spontaneous rant

well done

i'm even more clueless studying for 301 than when i studied for 201. there's no relevant exam paper to refer to, no exam tips, prose ppts and tons of guest lectures that more promotes their company than acty give a lecture - in short, no shortcuts or guides to narrow down the impt topics/chapters/points. well! how great is that! and i'm blogging when i shd really be eating the book! rah.

not that i'm complaining. the mugging momentum is picking up as the night progresses. i guess i do need a really quiet environment. maybe i shd join the club..and reverse my days and nights.. :( but i dun drink coffee! how am i supposed to survive without sleep.

it's a curious phenomenon how i try and distract myself from studying. right now i can just think of infinite things to do but study. but once the exams are over, they are just mysteriously forgotten. strange way the mind works! shd take up a course in psych and find out why.

watched the shopaholic movie with cecilia chung just now..and i just dun understand how that psychologist thinks, making 4 going-to-be-married ppl drive all around hk just to find out who they really wanna marry -_- if u watched the show before u'll know what i'm talking abt. see! i watched a movie! and not only that. i watched hard candy on comp too. damn scary, kids nowadays! ok i know it's fantasy but still! O_O and saw4 is coming out. i haven't finish watching saw3 yet, cos i stopped at a particularly gory scene. such disappointing behaviour! i think my gore tolerance is getting weaker. damn. so maybe it's an indicator that i'm not ready for saw4 =(

and, i'm quite sure i need to curb my spree addiction. before i go broke. nevertheless, BIGI, Xiaomei, Joyce Shop and Maz Yang are my favourites! can google them to check them out! can't stop drooling at their stuff! ooh..another escapism activity revealed..

i'm quite happy that i took the modules i took this sem, but for the wrong reasons. not cos i truly like them, but cos the others are horrible - incompetent lecturers, spoil market ppl, same course content but more demanding projects..i've heard it all..i hope. so anyway, maybe exams are another thing. (had to put a disclaimer here. karma works in strange ways!)

and i think i do belong to my division. the madness is just abt on par as mine. wahaha. and the slackness. and everything else.

good news: i've removed the song that has deterred visitors! now who exactly is this news going out to, if they all don't return already?

ラベル: spontaneous rant

sometimes, answered questions just bring abt a new set of questions.

yes, m&c saatchi has finally finally called..but how will the interview turn out?

yes, most of the projects have ended without glitches..but what are their outcomes?

yes, i've secured a company for phase 1..but do i really want it?

yes, i know of more 1st class and dean's list ppl..but is it better if i didn't?

acty i applied to m&c saatchi to have a shot..never really expected anything. the only reason i applied is if i don't try, i'll never know..if i can have a chance. such lack of ambition? whatever. i'm sick of competition. all the high level ppl, pls go away.

i'm really tired. all the effort, all the doing without complaining toleration, and all the time and money apent..are all false hopes..get personal all u want. i can't be bothered.

in fact, i've been totally impulsive this sem. i devote everything to what i like and neglect everything that i don't like. and right now, i just feel like skipping over the exams so i don't have to take them. because i know my fate for this sem has just abt sealed.

to be absolutely random, i hate boon lay mobs. argh why is there SO MANY PPL at all times of the day?? it takes so long to get anywhere!! it's prob one of the last places i wanna live in.

such lack of life..to be talking abt nothing but school. but that's cos i've let projs, assignments and readings take over my life. can't complain now, can i?

someone! tell me precisely what to do. i don't wanna stand ambiguity anymore.

i guess i'm fine. i'm just an angry student. but otherwise i'm a person-to-be..after nov 27th.

ラベル: innermost feeling, spontaneous rant