for the future me

what with having 6 modules and 5 are project-based? urgh. yr3 is a no life yr. the premonition that i should enjoy my last 3mth hols thoroughly was spot on. though i was predominantly rotting away at home but like peifen said..free time is such a rare luxury..i miss rotting away. boohoo.

i have so much things to do. but ironically they're all at a standstill. cos my time is at the ctrl of others. cos my prof hasn't given the next qn to start on. cos my prof hasn't approved our proposal. cos i haven't received my soft copy survey. cos mr wong hasn't taught us after effects fully. cos the levi's marketing head hasn't replied my email and thus i'm screwed. and cos i've finished everything at hand. to-do's, anyway. not readings. hate to read!! grr.

and thus i've been training my virtual pets in facebook, pebbit and tidbit. at least i see results of training in them. argh. it's such a letdown to open mailbox and not receive the reply i want.

sigh. i miss kbox. i miss home. i miss having scv. i miss night markets. i miss taiwan food, taiwan toy machines, taiwan night life. i miss my holiday life. my withdrawal symptoms are getting too serious. and on top of that, seeing the freshie guys i once knew in sec sch and jc makes me feel uber oldddd.

and wkwsci just got richer, with mr. shinnyo-en giving us $250k and the govt matching dollars..shucks..should have gone for exchange. seems like the whole world has. at least now printing is free. an illogical thing i found out ytd was wkwsci and adm are now under hss. like WHAT?? hello, both schs are individually richer than the parent cannn. haiz. and our transcipts will have hss! yucks! i want my proper cs status la! it's SO artificial, for i've never stepped into hss in my life..and there it is..on my transcript when it hasn't influenced or educated me before.

and i haven't watched secret, 881 or rush hour 3. tell me agn i have no life.

out-of Point: yuanhong said gareth gates is malaysian! like O_o

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airy pebbles and the half-priced tuesday

yay! my very-muchly-mistaken textbook is refundable! that's like 42% off the price i bought it for, nearly half-price! i KNEW a black and white book can't be that ex! i love my prof! whoopee. has anyone experienced this before? like, i wouldn't be as happy if the book was $27 in the first place. this whole thrill is all abt getting a refund of $20 from $47. it ended up the same way, but it had 2 entirely different outcomes. in fact, if it had been $27, i might not even have bought it, cos the photocopied version sells for like, $17. but jus now i was thinking like hmm..i'd rather buy the book for a little more money. i feel weird analysing my perceptions. =p

but alas..as things would have it, just a little less than an hour before i received the news, i bought a top that's exactly the amt i would be refunded. strange way the world works..but anyway, Match, which is also called Dano, and has its plastic bags read Vida, has nice half-price tops (: what's with half-price and today?? and it's tuesday too! Gelare!!!

bought alotof junk groceries tdy..and i finally found my onion chicken indomee! pardon me, childhood memories agn..but trust me..it's seriously the best instant mee..next time ya go to some $1 or value saver shop or sthg, look for indomee's rasa ayam bawang..oishii!

learned one thing today: jurong point is not a capitamall :( so i can't use my bday vouchers in it! so much for half-prices, i rather use my vouchers! T_T

and..it seems that i'm growing more accustomed to my new bed, cos i'm sleeping more and yet still feeling tired. or maybe it's just a general feeling of all students. heh.

ah, the internet is finally up in ntu agn. grr. and oh, do the quiz below!

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arghhhhh!

the above is actually a yelpish scream of joy and release rather than an anguished roar..which has occurred more often in my blog. but really..argh! allow me to nag, but i really really am so glad that i went to cs instead of anywhere else..that i followed my heart and ignored my head..(maybe that's why it's been malfunctioning ever since) and for all the other nitty gritty decisions that were made the same way. maybe it can be said that i wun know what's out there if i dun try other things..things that i dunno if they interest me or not..but i always believe everyone knows whether they're really happy or not..and they know whether what they're doing is The Thing, or The Right Thing, just like only u know if u've married The One..something like that..and i'm quite positive i'm truly enjoying myself. cs can be quite summarized by one word - surprises. no matter who u bump into, no matter which corner u go in the sch, or which prof comes along and teaches u. i sound too patriotic, but I LOVE CS! if only the ci club could return me my textbooks too. haha.

speaking of which, i spent $120 (and counting) on. BIG SIGHHHH. but i'll treasure them well. still, BOOOHOOOOOOO.

whee~ i'm twirly. never knew what it felt like to totally let go of frayed ties and bonds (oh, what a joke) that were loose on the other end for quite sometime. no one is right or wrong..i just believe i've done what i could. no communication, no sharing! the old days are officially gone.

what would you see in the Mirror of Erised?

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i would do what i love

and so i've endured one week of school..one week of full lectures despite them being the first..one week of untimely lesson and break periods..and one week of spasms of stress. and to add on to it, it seems that the more unfriendly the lesson is on my timetable, the more interesting it is..but the more interesting it is, the more creatively-challenging it is..and thus, i'm very very confused indeed. let me repeat the qn posed to us the other day at PI briefing. "would you do what you're good at, or what you love?" assuming they are not the same thing as with a common commoner like me, but if it is the case for anyone then congratulations all the same, i'd put my answer down in the title of this post. and incidentally, it was the 'correct' answer..in mentality i suppose. i guess that's why ppl in CS are where they are now. if not some of them can jolly well be fine lawyers, sociologists, business ppl..

and SO....that kinda answers my own qn..to continue enduring what i had endured for this past wk..in hope that as i enjoy what i do, it would negate the inconveniences in my life, the opportunity costs, and worse, maybe a suffering GPA. O_o arghhh.

as i'm telling my angel now, my social circle is really limited..is that really the fate of a jc kid? haiz..just at xiuxiu's party alone, i have some sort of link to someone at every table other than her family one..one is my CS friend, one is my hall fren, one is sec schmate, and then there's yc n cheryl..yc leh!! so no link to xiuxiu still can bump into him..in fact..most of the ppl i know in uni have some sort of link to me..like my junior date in hall camp last yr..he's one yr older..and we were in the SAME JC AND SEC SCH and we've never seen each other in our lives..and we had to meet in hall and it HAD to happen that he becomes my jr date..life's too uncanny and unpredictable sometimes..like the meeting times for everyone in our lives were very much pre-arranged. argh..but small as it is, i hope it's a powerful social circle i have..seeing that they're more or less the top 20% of the brains of our age..so i shd make the best of it rite?

sigh..i've been feeling a strange sense of emptiness abt Harry Potter..perhaps cos now i know there's nothing more to look forward to..whether it's the next book or the fact that i'm still halfway thru a book..both long-term and short-term hopes have been dashed..so i guess it's just the movies left. frankly, i've always been torn whenever i'm reading the book..i wanna read slower so that there's something to read the next time, but i also wanna read faster to get to the ending..to know what everyone else knows. and i'm dreading the movie..after the experience with the 5th. like i said..it was shockingly disjointed. but i can't give a better suggestion so i should just shut up.

hall 16 is a dream come true. if i could just put down my guard for a moment.

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awed...

during, and after reading the Harry Potter series. J.K. Rowling is, by far, the cleverest writer of the most addictive book series ever. her wit, her humour, her ability to create a world in seven books with details that construct a whole big story, and her patience, perseverence and creativity that she had during the 16 years which she did so, is just so amazing. people often wonder how Harry Potter fans can be so crazy abt the whole affair..i used to be one of them too..but after picking up my first Harry Potter book, which is the Chamber of Secrets, after which i read in order (and sometimes re-reading cos there's just too much to rmb and easy to forget), i immediately knew what all the hype was abt. J.K. Rowling brings the reader to her world with her simple and lively use of words. there's not a dull moment in any page, for while there is a main event going on, there will always be another, or several, smaller side activities going on to keep the school life real, and their adventurous life more exciting. every time i embark on reading a HP book, i was transported to the magical world and intrigued by the happenings and turn of events, and there is this irresistable urge to go back to the book whenever i was interrupted, and a surreal hangover after, say, a night of satisfying reading. takes a while to return to the Muggle world, haha.

oh well, gna give my thoughts on book 7. i'm not gna say it's a spoiler, cos it's like, what, almost 3 weeks after the release of the book, and the whole world (ok, i mean the world of HP fans, really) would have read it. (and who reads my blog anyway???) it's in point-form, cos i still have a hangover and i can't organise my thoughts. haha.

- firstly, i was rather shocked that Rowling killed Hedwig so early in the story..though we all expect and know it's going to be the book with the most deaths and sacrifices..but still..poor Hedwig! but then, without any regard to theor magical powers, how old do owls live, anyway?

- then came the death of Moody..which i had a wild suspicion for awhile, like some of the characters in the book, that he wasn't dead..that he was just in hiding..and this suspicion gradually eased out and was almost forgotten until it was confirmed on the door of Dolores Umbridge. argh, that evil toad..

- the helpless and frustrating journey of the search for the Horcruxes was really a test of her descriptive writing of the surroundings, and i had no doubts in saying she's really a natural. for the numerous books before, where the new chapter begins or when the story needed a breather, there would be the realistically detailed description of the surroundings.

- never knew so many uses of the Patronus until this book..not only could it drive away dementors, it could even pass messages from its caster and even provide warmth in a room full of dementors..

- that the 4 best friends, the 4 creators of the Marauder's Map, were finally reunited in death in this book, as with all the major characters in the previous generation - Dumbledore, Lily Potter, Severus Snape, Mad-eye Moody, Grindelwald, and of cos, the most important of all, Voldemort..

- i almost cried on the separate occasions of Dobby and Fred's death, for they were there in all 6 books, with minor yet entertaining roles in the darkening progress of the story. especially Dobby, since Harry had carried and buried him and all that. though Rowling also touched on abit on Fred's death, that George kneeled by his head, and the separation of the story's most colourful and favorite brothers made it all the more depressing.

- the most unexpected and probably the biggest turn of events in all 7 books, is undoubtedly, Snape's memory that explained everything. though the hatred for him immediately extinguished, i still could not accept this character fully..for some unknown reason. maybe it's cos of what Fred had joked, that shampoo repelled him..cos before that i only assumed he had oily scalp..but never stopped to think if he ever washed his hair! haha..

- my impress at Hermione has never been so clear and deep as when she planned their escape at Luna's house. like Ron said, she really is a genius! omg, her thinking had been so quick, yet so complete, that i could slap myself for forgetting the obvious reasons for the precautions she was taking..until she explained. ahhh..she has replaced Ron as my favourite character in the series. haha. not only for her intelligence, which has expanded from books to real-life situations and the ability to observe so well, but also her loyalty to Harry, keeping her promise and never abandoning him in the most dire and fruitless of all situations.

- i must say i was a tad disappointed at the ending..cos i had heard spoilers that Harry will get married and have 2 children, and i chose not to believe it..cos it was simply too..plain, boring, and un-J.K.Rowling-ish. but turns out it's true, but he had 3 and not 2 children. the thing abt Albus Severus and how he looked like Harry seemed too cheesy to me too..but who am i to judge? -shrugs- was quite confused at the James-Albus-Lily-Rose-Hugo-Harry-Ginny-Ron-Hermione scene at the platform..like with the mention of each name i'd stop to think who that is..and it gets a little frustrating at times..but i decided it's not that important..haha.

- kept a list of the Horcruxes and people who died while reading the book, and now that i look back at it, i realise i'd written the 7th Horcrux as Voldemort and not Harry, cos like, it was only revealed in the very last part of the story..amusing..

- why King's Cross?? and what's the thing that was curled up and whimpering?? really the bit that was not explained at all in this book..and there's no count on the next to..obviously.

- the fact that Harry survived agn and agn is getting rather expected..it's taken for granted and it was the final outcome..i was half-expecting that J.K. Rowling would kill Harry in the end, though. but of cos that would more likely render her murdered and condemned by her very own hoard of fans.

- wonder if anyone realised, but talented as she is at casting spells that saved Ron's and Harry's lives time and agn, reading ppl's faces and guessing well what is going on in their heads, and having thinking that surpasses the ordinary speed, Hermione was very often casting wrong votes during their journey. she had objected to going to Grimmauld's Place (but was overruled, for the better), stamped out Rita Skeeter's version of Dumbledore's life altogether (which was later proved true), agreed to go to Godric's Hollow (though it was inevitable), refused to believe in the Deathly Hallows (until Ollivander convinced her)..i forgot if there was anymore. but we all know everyone makes mistakes..even Hermione! and no one can deny that whenever she had her beaded bag, she was unbelievably well-prepared. is it a girl thing? haha.

- so happy that Kreacher has turned good. that was probably one of more uplifting points of the story?

ok..that's the end of my terribly jumbled-up thoughts on the book..took so long cos i had to make sure that i was definitely reading an e-version of the original book, and that took awhile. then i was busy moving to hall, and that took another while. then school started, so i took some other whiles. but there! i finished reading the book in erm..less than a week. too slow rite? :(