sigh, non-examinable subjects only seem desirable. what lies beneath are countless, numerous, overflowing projects, assignments and deadlines to meet and complete. such a sentence might not have an impact on the average joe passing by here, since everyone is complaining abt the same things. but trust me, having 6 or 7 assignments at the back of my head (if it's still considered one) constantly is more than enough to kill. my gpa.

though it's quite clear what i'm gna s/u, it's still rather disheartening to know that i HAVE to s/u something. like, why did i even take this in the first place? or, why other ppl can make it and i cannot? somehow, the "i must conquer xxx module" spell has lost its effect. i dunno is it cos i never put as msn nick -______-" but well..it's what i've been telling myself this whole sem. and nothing is happening. and borrowing an analogy from the chinese bamboo tree story, i have NO time to wait till it shoots up six feet in the fifth year. so..i have to admit that there is something i can't do, no matter how hard i try. that, or ian's requirements are skewed. >_<

i have no time to date, celebrate ppl's 21st birthdays, for tuition, to maple, or do a piece of assignment to my satisfaction. everything kinda zooms past and leaves me with a borderline grade, i imagine. so what's with the no time to do work but have time to blog? well, i think it's just called giving up and if i continue forcing myself thru my assignment-inspiration's block, i'll be a mee pok girl.

ppl are roaring downstairs and i'm really getting kinda irritated. a group of noisy guys at the bottom, at it for more than 15 mins does not spell anything good. or am i just becoming more grumpy? grrr. stop roaring!

but well..no matter what happens, it's nice to have ppl in the same predicament, whom u can worry, procrastinate and then burn dawn oil with. they are the ones who really understand, and will rmb this part of the life journey with u. this part of the road that we will all conveniently miss so much 10 yrs down, since it's so easy to forget the hardship and miss something when it's over..like the adults always do and tell us to cherish school life, rite? but cherish is such a surreal thing..can't grab hold of it, can't make it go slower, can't force myself to like it, so..what is cherishing the moment? zzz.

i'm tired. and sleepy. agn. when i just woke up from a 3 hour nap. sigh. such is the power of mental fatigue.

ラベル: innermost feeling