the 1st half of the yr..didn't feel like part of this yr at all..i'm somehow accustomed to academic years rather than calendar yrs now.. -_- it just feels so different! jan to apr (yr 1 sem 2) was the finding-my-way period..and the 3months hols really felt like marking an end to a yr..aug to nov (yr 2 sem 1) was the kinda-found-my-way period..hope i'll really-find-my-way in the coming sem! with the prospect of A's following suit and finding their way into my degree audit oso..(0.o)..wahaha..

hmm..though from unlikely sources like maple and hk period dramas, i've come to pick up the impt msg often reiterated before me: is it worth it? 'it' being anything at all..from staying up late to study to doing something without expecting anything in return. i guess..if my heart points me in a particular direction, even if it disobeys all reason and logic, or even regard for other ppl..it would have been the most gratifying thing to do, even if it means i can only secretly express it in the deepest part of my mind/heart. but sigh..un-/fortunately, 'it' is often stopped by such things as ability, conscience and consideration..and that is why we all have regrets in our lives, isn't it. all these..over a very commercialized christmas. how sad indeed.

quoting a very silent msn fren, "aiya, no more topic (to talk abt) le", and i am dozing off..so, nitey..

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