the 1st half of the yr..didn't feel like part of this yr at all..i'm somehow accustomed to academic years rather than calendar yrs now.. -_- it just feels so different! jan to apr (yr 1 sem 2) was the finding-my-way period..and the 3months hols really felt like marking an end to a yr..aug to nov (yr 2 sem 1) was the kinda-found-my-way period..hope i'll really-find-my-way in the coming sem! with the prospect of A's following suit and finding their way into my degree audit oso..(0.o)..wahaha..

hmm..though from unlikely sources like maple and hk period dramas, i've come to pick up the impt msg often reiterated before me: is it worth it? 'it' being anything at all..from staying up late to study to doing something without expecting anything in return. i guess..if my heart points me in a particular direction, even if it disobeys all reason and logic, or even regard for other ppl..it would have been the most gratifying thing to do, even if it means i can only secretly express it in the deepest part of my mind/heart. but sigh..un-/fortunately, 'it' is often stopped by such things as ability, conscience and consideration..and that is why we all have regrets in our lives, isn't it. all these..over a very commercialized christmas. how sad indeed.

quoting a very silent msn fren, "aiya, no more topic (to talk abt) le", and i am dozing off..so, nitey..

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2nd yay: death note 2 is out! though i could have watched it on christmas..notice the big COULD HAVE. it was a possibility well within my reach..cos bam and i got pang seh!! gosh..and as to why we are not the leader of ourselves..it is another story..haha..

3rd yay: met up with da jie, san mei and san mei fu for mahjong yesterday! and had canadian pizza! great evening~! wahaha..i love good company and good food! if anyone still rmbs, i said all i want for xmas is good company (but i wouldn't mind some cash too =p)..so it sort of came true..though not on the day itself..but anyway, had a laughing good time playing english mj..and curing us of our year-long itch (has it been that long??)..haha..

4th yay: i'm getting a free upgrade in my broadband speed!! 12mbps! up from 6.5! woohoo. infact, i hope i get my facts right. i think it's damn fast!! gna off and on my modem agn later..after blogging..that's how it's supposed to kick-start it.. xD nice! for a wireless user!

5th yay: still thinking hard abt this one..but i guess it has got to do with me being almost completely free until the end of hols to stay at home..until hexis stuff calls along..groan..but anyhow..stay at home = save $, time and energy..so i'm really fine abt this way of life! (at least..till i regain my satisfactory bank balance..)

happy holidays! and my hair is smelling good! wahaha..vidal sassoon rocks my socks..

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it was a nice break from blogging. was quite happified, though alotof travelling was done to avoid certain matters..and travelling = costs :'( nvm..i think it was worthwhile. can't make sense to save money just to land myself in a troublesome and restricted place, ey?

carolled, made presents, read, seen, heard, remembered, forgotten, felt. these are all the things i've done. gosh. i shall not revert to my ambiguous style agn. but..they are but trivial matters. have i anything to blog abt, except such small things? is it possible that small pebbles can blog abt things that will have an impact? i think not..and even if she can, only ppl who shd know it, will know it..and places that can contain it, will contain it. and it is not this place, because it is the intersection of the many kinds of person i am. and to certain ppl, i cannot show a certain side of me. i think it is the same for everyone. yes, i can keep a blog for a certain clique, but what if i have something to say abt them? create another blog? do i have to create a blog then, for every clique i have, that i can blog abt anything except things abt them? or, i keep a private blog and keep everyone out? what good then, would this be, since it's a blog?

agn..i talk too much..but i do feel like sharing my innermost thoughts once in a while..show that i do think and care abt certain things..and what better time to write abt it, than on a melancholy, pouring nite? and the above was not mindless ramblings. i do have certain misgivings abt the ppl around me, that are so trivial that i can't bear to say, yet impt enough to keep me thinking abt it. but basically, i was just thinking abt obligation and initiative. but to those reading this, don't worry. cos it's probably not you. simply cos you are reading this. i suppose you care enough.

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and..this is a lucky post..for it is....post number 88! i'll do something special on my 100th, i promise! *.^

okie..off to maple!

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i think using diaryland really does require certain knowledge of html..maybe that's y it's so unpopular. and it doesn't support any other language other than chinese. but one thing nice is that it is completely ad-free..no matter u use the free or paid account.. xD Y^o^Y i like! and most imptly, it doesn't hang and make ppl retype the whole blog entry! cos firstly, it rarely hangs. and secondly, we can always return to the page with the intact entry, copy all, refresh, and paste it back! =D

i'm re-using bitcomet..hehheh. hope the fuss over piracy is over now!

i love the hk drama serial war of in-laws! ie wo de ye man nai nai..on vv drama, ch55, 8pm from mondays to fridays. repeat telecasts are on 11:40pm the same nite, and 12pm and 4:30pm the next day. hk seems to make the best period dramas. xD easily understood, action-packed, emotional and very addictive! a thoroughly entertaining experience!

stupid cockle msged me on msn just now..talking nonsense as usual..but he's gg to nus, LIKE EVERYONE ELSE. y is everyone gg to nus!! only i'm left in ntu, with many many ah tiongs..sob..they make up 20% ok! wth..esp during hols..it's terrible i tell u..they're everywhere..oh man. watched a very old zong yi da ge da on tv jus now..and xia yi was on the show. (that shows how old it is.) they're talking abt cultural differences btw tw and prc agn. i muz agree that the chinese use a very different language..and their translation is..omg..so literal that i can't take it. ok..they only gave three examples and i wanted to pengz alr..one is the boyband Take That, one is the movie Catch Me If You Can, the last one is 007: Die Another Day. translate it word for word and YOU GET IT. i was speechless at their priority of comprehension over meaning, as xia yi explains the initiative behind the way they translate their titles. goodness. i'm thankful for being bilingual.

gg back hall tonite. (groan) gotta pack. till the next time!

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but anyway, that wasn't the zhong dian of this post..the zhong dian is..we had a wins outing agn~! to ECP (and my fave petshop along the way, whee!)! still 5 wins this time..with genuwin and without rjwin. haha..maybe i shd say 6 wins..cos grace genuwin ong brought her fren, erWIN! hahaha..didn't realise the uncannyness until i was blogging abt this..sometimes it's always until things are put in words that u realise their significance..ain't it? lol! but well done..cos we finally have a win badge! or to put it plainly, a win handphone strap..from ade-weiner-win! who bought it in thailand..so cute manz..and it matched our handphones! (except zhawin and rjwin i think..cos ur hps aren't pink..chuckles) in case u're wondering, IT'S A PIG~! with a bell..and a different expression from the rest..wahaha..damn cute can..but too bad it's not a pengwin..lol..nvm la..a pink pig will suffice! anyway, as usual, with zhawin around, we had a lunch unrestricted by the confines called price, which was a $22.50 bak kut teh meal at the lagoon, of which i think zhawin probably ate $15's worth. i've long since come to wonder if i should feel thankful for her appetite, or otherwise at her spending. -_- i seriously hope adewin wasn't traumatised. apart from that, the 3 of us had a screaming fun time cycling (or rather, a fun time screaming and cycling) to bedok jetty, while the other 3 wins probably had a more productive 2 hours blading. yup..after that we dragged our feet to parkway parade (affectionately abbreviated pp
by bubwin) where zhawin waited for bubwin to say the magic words 'go home'. yup..that's abt it..sounds fun? hahaha..anticipating the next! swimming, anyone?

oh oh..forgot to mention my lucky streak on the 2nd day of subj registration! though i forgot abt registering at the time allocated, i managed to nab ppc and radio practicum (a VERY hot module..among my cohort at least), get all my subjects put on waitlist successfully, and switch my 203 tut slot! i dun think ppl out there understand the significance of this last stroke of luck, but well, it basically means at that millisecond, that instant, that moment that i tried switching, there was a place in that slot that might just have been left vacant a millisecond, or an instant, or a moment before i clicked on it, AND I GOT IT! wahaha..now the vacancy stats for the 4 tut vacancies as i can see it still stands at 7, 13, 0 and 10 respectively..oh well..to date i still cannot figure out how i got that slot after like, maybe 23 hours? but to the person who gave it to me..i can only say thanks so much!! u made my timetable humane and hopeful agn! as quoted from yt. can't express myself properly..just a whoopy, bouncy 'YAY!' will do!

with some regret i announce that i've had my hair cut..to a length i can only say it's not an attribute, and satisfaction that is not there. SOB! i've had a mind to stay hidden until it grows out..but sigh..commitments in dec..YET AGAIN..zzz..oh well..hope my VS shampoo rescues everything..damn..i look like a kid..more. i need contacts desperately.

i'm panicking! cos i haven't got any xmas presents ready! i've at least..gasp..nine to prepare! and i haven't got the slightest idea..oh no! somehow i'm still in the nua mood..damn!

and..i've been keep myself busy by READING! shocked? wahaha..not online, not mapling, not blogging (duh..most apparently not), but reading! not newspapers though, mind you (even though i have the strongest foreboding that i should..considering next sem's module..sniffs)..but pure fiction. nothing beats lying on the bed, hugging baobei, and reading a nice book by the dim ceiling light till i doze off!

lastly, I'M VERY BROKE! i have good reason to suspect i'm digging into my savings nowadays..and i much fear the day when i try to buy something and my card fails me..sigh! tried applying for a library job (pls dun stare)..but the page won't load..tried looking for tuition kids..but they all need twice a wk lessons..which i can't..cos of stupid hall..yeah..and..with only half a month of holidays left..i can't see how i'm abt to look for jobs i was in previously..and with my mouldy webbie skills..i don't even dream of freelancing without the image of clement popping up in my head..so HOW?? pls let me know if u have obscure job lobangs..like proofreading masters theses..editing assessment books before publishing..or even a highly paid temp job at ST as an assoc engineer..SOB!

happy 12th day of december~!

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was surfing around as usual..and i can only say..HAIZ..i can't agree less with ppl's thinking nowadays..just wanna give them a big tight slap..WAKE UP LA!! but then agn, why am i so affected.. -_-"

yawn~ thinking of what to do now..as i painfully await 12pm to arrive..can't sleep..can't keep awake either..zzz..yawnnn~~ is my screen blurry? or my eyes? ZzzZ..

i've wei xiao pasta on my table now..but i'm seriously contemplating whether to watch or not..i really think it will be a waste of time..tw ou xiang ju has never gotten on the better side of me..ever since they emerged..i really think the original comics are not that bad themselves..but after bringing it to life (not too sure abt that too)..erm..no comments..

zZzz..this is risky..i'm falling asleep by the minute..lucky my laptop is burning hot..i'll never doze off in front of it..is this a situation that i'm supposed to thank my laptop for being the way it is? O_o i'm going bonkers with waiting..

i shall go find a new activity..tatas~~

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i sound awful now..how to carol?? tell me! my sore throat just refuses to go away! (wahaha..so i guess i have valid reason not to go down for practice..besides the fact that i'm sop..and know the songs quite well..) and so many ppl are down with some illness..flu..sore throat..fever..cough..and it's the ppl around me..oh well..i'm ok with anything except cough..a coughing pebs is a paralysed pebs..for 6 months..

my wakeup times are so extreme nowadays..it's either 7 or 11.. -_- but i was awaken by knocking this morning..cos my alarm didn't ring..grr..i was supposed to go jog with frens..oh well..2nd time alr..1st time was e-learning wk..and i didn't realise got that 8.30 lecture..boohoo..but somehow..whenever i oversleep i can get ready so fast that i amaze myself..though i think that only applies to when i'm in hall..

shall not get myself started on the topic of hall..u may call that suppressing my unwanted thoughts into the unconscious mind..and seeing that one day it will inevitably be projected to my conscious state, u suggest i shd go for psychoanalysis asap? wahaha..201 haunts u forever~~~ (reveberation)

wah..zhanie's blogskin really took me by shock..thought i stumbled onto some rocker's blog..and her prev skin is so nice~! princess hours one..sigh..nvm la..chg chg lor..support the talented creators out there..

received a rather ridiculous email tdy..informing us abt a briefing happening at 2pm, at 11am..pengz..and to think that me, the person who checks email regularly enough to find them lined with an inch of dust, CHECKED EMAIL THIS MORNING at 8am and didn't see anything (obviously)..goodness! and the reason i so heck care abt the briefing was cos i only knew i was part of the event thru that email.. "-_- tian ah! it's ur appreciation dinner for ur donors for goodness sake! but from this incident, it's hard to imagine how u can care less. if i were a donor..i really wonder how much more the dinner meant to u than it did to me..y are ppl so pragmatic?? wanted to scream mead..but i hesistated..to scream dewey..den consulted the ever so trusty wiki..and it was acty the combined work of james, dewey, mead and pierce..so to the four of u..what has ur theory led to?? get the money le den anyhow put up a dinner to fu yan them ar..zzz..k la to be fair..it's not a social theory..but a philosophical one..once agn..201 haunts u forever~~~

yay..looking forward to more outings with the wins..muz meetup wor! and oso with sisters..da jie last paper tdy! whee~~ finally can see the two aussie babes le..one disappeared..one drowning in the fate of having a bmt bf..who is gg to pass out i think..not literally of cos..and oso with htg! kbox! wahaha..hope can find dates for all these..i want a nice dec hols..even though no white xmas..or carlsberg..but muz have gd company nevertheless!

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zzz..wanted to blog abt my very happifying pebbles and bam bam bedsheet..but now all the mood is lost..but yeah..i found it in the john little sale..and i bought it cos i lost my bedsheet in hall..it wasn't stolen or misplaced..it just vanished..another reason to rant on and on..but i shall not..

dreading tonite..but i shall just hang on for the last few times..and survive like i did half a year ago..rahhh!! i hate ridiculous commitments!! and expensive ones nevertheless! grr! i used to wonder if i rather have time or money..now i know the answer..i'd rather have time!! den i wouldn't waste it doing things that i shouldn't..and waste my money in the process too..grr! i really need to vent it out..

i must stand up for myself..no matter what..i will not pay any more than i should..i will let my bank balance go back to what it should be..

stupid sms..one sms and all my happy thoughts are gone..

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