for the future me

i know you don't regard your birthday as imptly as some other days, but i still hope i could have said happy birthday to you personally. maybe you do too..i don't know. sigh..all the signs of missing you are starting to take form..like pacing abt all day, having an sms monologue marathon, not finding anything interesting (even shopping!), feeling lethargic all the time..i'm starting to lose control..

i don't know why this kinda turned out looking depressing. but i'm really tired..and i just realised i'm blogging at a very interesting date and time.. -points above-

turned 20 already..don't be so xiao hai zi at times..learn to take care of yourself la..start by being more organised..hai..sometimes i feel like a mum..but it's fair i guess..cos sometimes i act like a spoilt little girl too..poor dad you are..

as for me..i still have 8 more days to do all i wish and attribute them to teenage recklessness and nature.. (:

love youuu.

ラベル: innermost feeling

on april 21st, i love myself for being accountable to myself

how many ways can you say your exams are over?
1. it's over!
2. it's over.
3. it's over?
4. it's over...
5. it's OVERRRRRR
all of the above applies to me..i'm feeling high emotionally but i'm so tired physically..feeling somewhat numb also. had sucha fun and crazy day..but i'm v sure i'm not the craziest..hahaha..

went to kbox! so routine rite..typical celebration style. and we shocked the staff by trampling on the sofa and even standing on its edge, against the wall -___- machiam rock climbing. haha. talk abt madness. jane was so high (both ways..lol) up that she's touching the ceiling..and she even had a i'm-holding-the-ceiling-up pose..hahaha. got chased out after only 3hrs..wanted to get a decent explanation..but decided not to when i realised i kinda lost my voice. haha. great singing session! den it's shopping!! at the heavenly and infinitely extending marina square! wa..it's been how long okay..since i'd had a REAL shopping experience. it's great therapy! and a surefire way of taking one's mind off things. i totally forgot abt post-exam to-do stuff. -_- it's always like that..plan so hard, get so excited over it, den forget it. come to think of it..that's kinda like studying, isn't it?

we had dinner at the magical asian kitchen! where practically everything on the menu is gastronomic! can just close your eyes and pick. serious! i love the stuff there. and i love empty restaurants :D

met zhane who was back frm tuitioning, watched her eat..den it's shopping agn! poor rj..sour legs till now. wahaha. i think all my excitement during shopping masked my fatigue till i was on my way home..now i'm just nodding away dozing..zz..yawn..

i love cs! cos we enjoy our lessons and projects, we can do a paper without studying, and we finish our papers earlier than the rest of the university almost all the time. and it's such a cosy family in there. wahaha. call us snobs. continue your misconceptions. but we'll always love ourselves for who we are, no matter how misunderstood. (:

ラベル: juicy update, traffic-stopping event

on april 20th, i love myself for having done my best in this exam.. (:

yay..105 paper tdy..den tmr's liberation after 106 paper! no one seems to have really touched 106 yet..but it's those kinda topics that you go wth. anyway, i've impt news!!

1. oas found out abt the 'illegal' double special sems. haha. but i'm stil gna try my best to fight it back. (: like i said, being found out is what it shd have been..but it's cool knowing you outdid your system once.

2. i'm one scv, one canon camcorder and one N6280 richer! :D :D ok, the phone is bam's..but it's under my protection now. all cos of his persistence (for me!!) to insist on bugging starhub to let us have the offer. oh man. haha. but it's really the first time i tried being a nasty customer. had some useful trng frm 106, i must say! humph..if it weren't for my upbeat acting tt day..i dun think it would have been possible..i think i alerted more than one dept, haha..and they got back to me quite quickly.

3. had a mini crisis on tues nite. cos baobei was leaking beads! discovered a hole along the seams and quickly stuffed whatever beads we can see..but it's impossible to stuff it in with fingers, cos of the combined factors of static, and the weightlessness of snow beads. cos when you try to group them together, they bounce off -_- anyway, sewed baobei back up but he's become saggier than ever :(

4. i'm having a bday chalet at costa sands pasir ris frm april 29th to may 1st! sorry to those still having exams.. (like ad!) :/ you know i'd have invited you (already!)! oh wells. gotta..find out stuff frm there.

5. i'm using k700i. haha. v3 pink makes one irritated. but i'll switch soon..when the msg inbox is no longer enough for my msgs..frm bam! hehe..

6. i just thought of a perfect gift that you ppl can give me for my bday! sponsor my birki's!! like what 2 ppl are doing alr..heh..just come together, pool your money, find a posb/dbs acct amongst you, and do a fund transfer! :D and just to let you know what you're sponsoring..
These Are My Birki's! Get Photobucket!

ok, i think that's all i can think of..there're tons of things, esp research methods swimming in my half-dead brain! good luck for 105 (:

ラベル: juicy update, spontaneous rant

on april 16th, i love myself for having all the luck i can have, believed to be the work of bam bam rubble and guardian angels..

i can't believe it! ntu's system screwed up...in my favour! hahaha. let me tell you slowly..
1. i'm taking ee8086 (astro) in sem s and cs227 (web design and mgmt) in sem t!! how is it possible?? haha, that's a VERY good question, it was impossible, but i did it! and at first i thought it'd be like, wait after the drop period for sem t is over den get all excited..well now it is and my highness (pun unintended) hasn't dropped since last nite! and i double-checked, triple-checked on stars, subjects registered and degree audit..and it's positive! confirmed! guarantee and chop stamp! yayyy! it was what i always wanted! and to think i thought it was impossible! haha, i had a tad too many strokes of luck. :p
ok..question 1(a): how did i do it? haha, for ee8086 it was pure luck. i was just allocated it. no tricks! and thus i accepted it. initially it was stated that if i was allocated cs227, all other modules will be removed..which didn't happen! 2nd stroke of luck! whee!
2. my cs816 is not under s/u option now!!! why am i so excited? because it was, and supposedly the decision is IRREVOCABLE (i quote in the exact form of the word), and then stars removed it for me! hahaha..ok..here comes..
question 2(a): how did i do it? well, stars did it, not me! haha. okok..all cos of my silly mistake of putting 816 under ue instead of pe. it was my compulsory sts-pe somemore! and so i asked stars to convert it back for it, which took place after the s/u period was over..and i think they reset my s/u option..haha..which leads us to another qn..
question 2(b): why am i so happy that it's reset? didn't i want to s/u it? haha, seems like i don't in the end! cos i realised the 'mistake' after i took the paper, which was really damn okay. and i was lamenting with the other folks who s/u-ed it that we shdn't have..3rd stroke of luck!!! so now i've only 1 more sts-pe to clear and 1 bm-pe to clear..whee! which shd be marketing! cos ppl said it's easy.

whew, doesn't it feel good to have cheated on your own school system?! i only hope some stars ppl dun discover this post and come-a-knocking on my webmail that they've taken everything away from me! which shd have been the case of cos, but hey, i'll still smile cos i know outdid the system before!! it's like so many wishes granted all at once! haha, no wonder they say make your wish before the stars!! hahaha. and coincidentally it's stuff tt i lament abt..looks like i shd lament more! chuckles..

ok, i know this whole post sounds utterly no-life cos i'm getting excited over having lessons during hols and having an okay paper during exams, but hey..one more day, and it's full steam ahead! papers everyday except friday! and then it's the HOLS!!! yay!!!

p.s. for ppl who're not in uni or rather, ntu, there might be some terms which do not make any sense. but just feel my excitement reverberating! haha.

hmm..i've already planned my to-do list for post-exams..which includes generating a wishlist! which will be intangible stuff..since i bought my BIRKI'S rmb?? it's coming in 8-15 business days' time!! (: (:

ラベル: groundshaking discovery, juicy update, traffic-stopping event

on april 13th, i love myself for having found you to stop me from breaking down

amid all the stress radiating from me last nite, a glow of warmth was accentuating the radiation..and curbing the snowballing stress. cos bam did an uber sweet act in his sleep! how do i know, after all we're miles apart? ah, you know it..they always say telepathy. but more concretely, i have technology to (literally) light up my night, or rather, my phone. in the midst of my frantic last minute midnight oil burning, i sent an sos-esque sms (sos sms sounds funny) to bam at, well, close to midnight (lol)..as an act of desperation. and after awhile, HE ACTUALLY REPLIED! and it was rather obvious it was a half-asleep gesture, cos he never replied to my reply. but that's enough to (almost) soften me to tears alr, what with the impending stress and papers. and these few days, i've been showing more obvious signs than ever, of me being bam's gf. like. blowing nose really hard? and shortly after waking up too. so morning papers are bad, cos they are still in the morning! and hence i blow my nose in the exam hall! and i have no hand to write. not even mentioning the disturbance yet. argh. blowing nose now. now i understand why he blows his nose that hard.

my room is in a mess! every space is a makeshift space for the stuff i lugged back from hall. even my printer! poor printer, not even having a proper place..just sitting there on some random spot on the floor. and rj was surprised that i have a scanner. which is benq, dusty, and erm..a million yrs old. but it's alright, according to her, cos what matters is i have a scanner! lol.

nanyang audi is inaccessible! can't they have a bus stop for it? like, in the middle of the quad or sthg. haha. i'm madddd.

good luck for my coming papers!

ラベル: innermost feeling, spontaneous rant

on april 11th, i love myself for loving you for a whole ten months, and counting.

10th month! and a day to exams. bam flew off on sunday morning..or shd i say dawn..you can call it coincidence, or a good thing, or a misfortune, but he's always overseas and thus not around during my exam period, be it as a companion, distraction or cushion. sigh. i really do miss him like nuts.

uni is really complex. there are stuff that you love, and systems that you hate. ppl that you never knew, and those whom you misunderstand. modules that are prescribed, and others that are unrestricted. why muz it be so complicated?? and then there's hall and sch life. pls simplify things a little. we all need to breathe. sometimes, procedures intended to keep things in order might mess them up instead. dun u agree?

seems like readership is diving. well, just a feeling. which is good. cos i really wanna put down some of my innermost feelings here. dun wanna put on a fake front and create a secret blog and hope that in this vast virtual space called the internet, no one will find it. and when they do, like, oh too bad you found it. if there's anything offensive, sorry, i didn't expect you to find it. shrugs. now i shall continue blogging on my eternal hate of choi ji woo. yea, i dun wanna do that. sometimes i wonder, do ppl really have "private" blogs in hopes of not being found? or is it really the opposite? private blog is really an oxymoronic term. sigh.

after spending two sems in cs, i realised all 18 yrs of my life has been kinda wasted in science, in a sense. no thinking deep abt issues, no debates, no space to develop yourself. only stuff to learn, practise and memorise. at least i'm glad i took up cs in the end. following what i wanna do. and not what is safe to do. like what they say, you have to be crazy to come to cs. in all sense of the words.

i'm gna finally buy my first birki's. you can say as an early bday present to myself, or just a primal need for an all-purpose footwear. and it doesn't help that all my footwear wear off at the same time. like, soon. or maybe now. nevertheless, i wanna say, yay.

sixteen days is a long wait.

ラベル: spontaneous rant