christmas eve..had the first and best carolling experience of my life! (though it could have been at a posher venue) hall 6 carolled at hotel phoenix! were you there? haha. the first half at the lobby was okay..everyone seemed nervous..but we managed to make it last 25mins..a record long! then after a much-needed refreshments time we went on to perform our second half..at the cafe. it was so much better! and we blocked all 3 lifts haha. i wonder what was wrong with the management of the hotel. anyway! it was so great everyone was in a uber high state during and after the performance..we even had a fan coming up to us! he was a weird old man though..selectively shaking hands and breaking danqi's heart! but well..everyone's just content that we're noticed! (:

after that met dear at novena so as to avoid the crowd at town..then made a big big big detour that involved newton to take bus home and getting lost..which resulted in an hour long journey home! no difference with going home from town! anyway, went home to change and eat dinner (at 10+)..den slacked (and napped) awhile before setting off to tampines to catch The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe! it's a weird children's book i feel, some parts are too chim, while others are just way too childish (edmund!)..oh well..it's such a long show! 3hrs plus commercials! there's another pirates of the carribean movie coming up! starring JOHNNY DEPP!! and orlando bloom, AND KEIRA KNIGHTLEY! get ready for a guys stampede in the cinema..hmm..and what else..the carlsberg commercial keeps on playing! irritating..ohwell..so the movie ended at like 3am..and we the 2 zombies made our way home..oh forgot to add..received alotof christmas cards and smses this yr..really appreciate them alot man..see? re-emphasizes the point abt not doing enough for frens..nvm..on to the next point..

first day of christmas! spent the day together lazing around basically..until like 6..den we made our way to parkway..did some shopping..and saw the legendary watch that was missing in dear's life for 3 years..haha..spent some enjoyable moments in a pet shop..i just love visiting pet shops! looking at all the cute animals thru the glass..knowing that at least for that moment in time they're protected and not out in the streets being abandoned and slowly dying..the abovementioned owners shd be thrown into the brunei jungles and learn to survive on their own! humph. oh..rmb my deadly cough? it scared the hell out of a cage of guinea pigs..haha..i felt quite guilty know..and just before i left there was this really small, white and furry dog which appeared at my feet suddenly..and i stopped myself from reflexively screaming from shock..cos my first instinct was that a guinea pig jumped out and was abt to bite my toes..haha..silly me..

after that went to the beach for abt 10mins before we had to leave to look for a toilet..haha..and we never went back..we sat around until it was time to go back..

second day of christmas..boxing day..initially had a whole day's events planned out..but wokeup to a very bad news..my cousin had passed away from cancer that morning..of cos i was in grief for quite awhile..but come to think of it..he never was strong and that partly was his choice, so maybe we shd accept it too? it's his life after all..he shd have the final say. not to mention ending my aunt's misery once and for all..she's not young already..in a few yrs time she'll need taking care of instead of the other way round..didn't really come as a shock..cos everyone had prepared themselves mentally for this to happen..on a cruel note..he's almost like a stranger to me..i ended up becoming more worried abt my aunt than anything else..

and, i can't help feeling bad for abandoning the whole day's plans just like that..after all it was not like i was in a position to busy myself over anything..to my family it was just a piece of bad news..i know dear can't help feeling bumped too..though no one wanted that to happen..so i tried to makeup for it in the evening..

we went to marche at heeren..and it was such a lovely dinner..i dunno why too..but i guess the food and company were just too great not to create such an effect.. (:

as for today, we went to parkway agn to actually buy the things we saw the other day..i'm so glad to see the smile on his face when he wears his beloved adidas street soccer boots now.. (: oh..and we had a very nice lunch at ajisen too! and he's finally beginning to understand the conviction i have for ajisen ramen :P just like he had for fei cui..whee! our rare things in common had just grown!

okies..i'm tired..nites world..sorry to end so abruptly..i know it's bad structuring..but when one is tired..she can't really carry on being sincere..zzz..

ラベル: juicy update, spontaneous rant

my sweetest dear surprised me with lilies! well, not totally. i did say i want pink lilies as a christmas gift but considering the recent string of events which spell the impossibility of it all, i never thought i'd EVER receive it. but HE DID IT! despite being ill and having no time and it being such a difficult flower to find AND that it's the evening of the eve of christmas eve (that sounds pretty romantic!) already! my dearest dear got me my favourite lilies on the evening of the eve of christmas eve! i was really shocked and touched when he appeared at the door with the bouquet..shocked speechless and motionless for a few seconds..wow..no amount of hugs will ever be enough for that..i love you dear! i couldn't stop smiling and hugging and sniffing at the bouquet for quite awhile..haha..if only i had a higher definition camera..den my readers wouldn't have to suffer for the sucky pictures..

ok..enough abt the emotions that can't be put in words! i lied actually. there's two other big things that went on during the lapse of posts. i got my results!! and registered for my subjects..both of which had me happy until now. no, don't get me wrong..i didn't do well..i just had low expectations that's all..i did averagely well..haha..as for the dream timetable that i got..i've to thank spencer for telling me the magical method that works!! haha..but i shall not reveal it! just joking..it's quite hard to describe it..most imptly muz know how to grab the right timing. (:

yup..i've carolling tmr in orchard..come down and support! 7:30pm at hotel phoenix. that's at somerset. right next to the mrt. the sign is damn big. everyone must have seen it, just that u've never realised it. it's so big u'd have seen it when u're walking past the istana in the direction of orchard. yup..there're two sessions, half an hour each..with a break in between (:

i bought glittery nail stickers..and they're too big for my nails..not surprisingly. i've small wrists, small hands and hence, small nails! saves money sometimes..but the biggest trouble with thin fingers is never being able to find a ring! sobs..i'll never get married..

i'm blabbering..that's cos i'm tired..a result of not sleeping well in hall for a reason that i'm still in search of..good nite folks..MERRY CHRISTMAS!

ラベル: innermost feeling, juicy update, traffic-stopping event

anyway, i've been sick for the time i was away..sick of stuff and people for the first half of the period..and literally sick for the second..and thus i've been putting this impt entry away..

this period in hall has really let me see the more impt sides of life..that i can't devote as much time to other people as i do to some..unless i've infinite hours a day..or dedication to everyone alike..

it has also taught me it's quite pointless to chase after some vanishing things or people..because with the passing of everyday..they change..

i begin to constantly ask myself what i really wanna do..and not do things just for the sake of proving that i'm loyal/not a coward/not looking for excuses/really wanna do it/dun have any ulterior motives..which i'm not..there are quite some things i force myself to do in a faint hope of achieving something..not cos i truly wanna do it..and i'm not even sure if i want that something..yup..it's time to take control..

of cos..there are commitments..stuff that u muz do with an innate sense of responsibility..stuff u'll do even if it means waking up early in the morning despite having insomnia..or going to the lib to research on how to use dreamweaver..cos u know u'll never get past the guilt of escaping from it..for no reason anyway..what's so great abt escaping? with one person escaping, many others might be dragged in to cover the gap..

and then, there is this strange feeling of indebtation to my frens..the feeling that i could have done more..the feeling that they've done so much for me..i dunno if the reasons i never got to do anything for them are excuses..or if i'm thinking too much cos it didn't really matter that much..

overall..a semester spent alternating between subtle misery and happiness..

ラベル: innermost feeling

i had netball trng in the morning..haha..and i happily wore black tee and i didn't tie my hair..den everyone was asking me why..dots..cos i never think so far? and so i was burnt. anyway i have a natural blush on my cheeks now hehe..for once! the blush really quite cute man..haha..at just the correct spot..not too high..not too low..not too big a patch..not too small..not too red..haha..i wanted to take a picture of myself..but i dun wanna risk my readership diving..and it wun turn out clear anyway..ahh my eyelids feel burnt..rah! i look sleepy man..and somehow my eyes look more single-lidded than ever..

i'm going jp later! to meet my dearest dear..for a nice dinner..waha..and some shopping at ntuc..for food..hmm..i saw canned longans and luncheon meat in a fren's room..and i was inspired..hahaha..not having a fridge is not that bad a life la eh..as long as u know wad are the other foods that dun need fridging..

yesterday i was at tg pagar..handing in the final 9 surveys..and i was such a sotong! argh! first i only realised i went past tg pagar stn after the doors closed, despite me standing AT THE DOOR..and i had to take another train back, then after handing in my forms i realised i forgot to take my umbrella! jus as i was reaching the mrt stn! pengz. so i had to walk all the way back to the office to take. and so this teaches us that life is full of u-turns..but it does not necessarily apply only to grave mistakes. simple blurness can suffice. anyway, i took a different route to the office yesterday..and found new surprises! there's this ann siang hill thing which is acty just a few flight of wooden stairs on a concrete pavement and introducing this guy called lim ann siang..why stairs? cos the whole ann siang road area is uphill..i dunno if it was a shortcut as compared to the usual way..but i felt kinda glad i finally explored it..despite fears that it might be a dead end and i've to walk all the way back and start all over agn..according to the street directory. of cos..passing by the beloved amoy street food centre brings back familiar tummy rumblings! ah, so long..almost a year man..

seems like cheerleading is a super unpopular activity..how sad..i used to think cheerleaders are quite zai..but ppl never get to see the difficulties and trng behind it..it's true..i'm light enough..but if i wanted to join i'd have said so long ago..moreover if i was truly needed the invitation wouldn't have waited till now..just like hermione said..u should have asked me when u truly meant it..not as a last resort..i never intended this as a personal attack to anyone..this is a very natural human reaction..and i know it was just an innocent question asked..but the society is like that..u only think of someone when u need him or her..no one has time for grace anymore..and we've grown so accustomed to it that we dun realise it..so it's nothing wrong..dun worry..i still love hall 6 people..i just dun understand the world we live in sometimes..

i'm going home tdy! shd i reunite the 3 reddies for the first time in their lives??? -drumrolls!- stay tuned to find out! yawnz..i should start packing..eveningz folks..

ラベル: juicy update, spontaneous rant

but well..watching harry potter a wk after its opening deserves mentioning ain't it? considering wad a lagged act it is. expectedly, they left out alotof details..but wad is unacceptable to me is that they left out the whole quidditch world cup..i knew it before i watched it..it's impossible not to know from the gigantic hooha from ppl everywhere..but it was even more abrupt than i expected..jumping from one scene to another..just like that! machiam a poorly done cut scene..sigh..one of the many disappointments..but enough of it..

i wish so much this wk would be over soon..but i wish just as much for it not to..how contradicting..but it just so happens that all the irritating buggy stuff as well as dear's leave falls on this wk. whatever it is..it's alr friday..i had alotof fun and happiness these few days..maybe no one would know what or how much those few days meant to me..but i wished i knew if things had changed..and what had caused it..but i also know such questions will answer themselves with time..on a separate note..i'm getting more insight than i thought from watching Full House..this korean drama led by Rain and Song Hye Kyo..

today is quite a happening day for alotof ppl..dear's outing with his cousin and hc classmates..cherie's last day of internship..chan eng's last day of exams..ad's departure for japan..teresa's departure for m'sia..my little cousin's birthday..probably more that i dunno of..nvm then..i hereby wish everyone a happy happening day!

ラベル: spontaneous rant