for the future me

i believe everyone can tune to any kind of frequency they want. it's a matter of willingness. so the next time u wanna say i can't click with him/her/them, say i don't want to click with him/her/them.

and thus, i don't want to click with anybody.

except maybe my tj "click". by default i will. and i have to. right? haha. nono, not on the topic of convenience friends. haha, just the nature of it. it's like (hearing the binch) saying, CLICK UP, EVERYONE!, or, this is my click: bimbo, fishy and cockle!

AND, also cos i'm not a mouse. that goes click click click.

what exactly is the topic?

oh, exclusion. isolation. and nonchalance abt it. helplessness along with it. things are really hazy. nothing ever seems certain enough to have a status to it. or a conclusion. so it's like constantly living in a state of loss and uncertaincy. WELL, who cares. everyone for themselves!

and i'm not exactly going full steam with exams two wks away. cries!

haphazard thoughts. the night before bookout is always a cranky one.

trying to turn your pc into a mac is a BAD idea!

i hate crouching tigers and hidden dragons. such hypocrites.

zi2 ca4 at canteen 3 rocks!

of pebbles and rocks, pebbles is a theme in microsoft publisher. (:

maybe i'll write a story on qq. whose characteristic i haven't determined yet. just thought of a name.

okay, time to stop!

all this happens when you lose focus of your life and wonder what you're doing in the middle of nowhere, with only your laptop and half a bottle of water.

ラベル: spontaneous rant

a chronological dictation of the events of thursday and friday

yesterday was a mini see-saw ride, with ups and downs (see prev post), but not life-endangering, or big enough to qualify for a rollercoaster ride.

at first was the totally disappointing 102 and 111 presentations that kinda flopped, then was returning to my room with prospect of 3 reports and 1 assignment to do, which i completed 1 report and found something exciting and last-resort-esque online..haha..den went for lunch. and found!!1! apple marshmallows!!11 which happens to be a long-lost treasure for my dearest dear..whom i was smsing at that very instant!!1 anyway, things took a better turn from that point onwards..and eventually finished 1.5 reports and packed for home to meet him! hehe..so last nite, after dearest dear went home i was completing my .5 report whilst chatting with wayne and shiwei..and i was set thinking abt issues i've never thought abt..hmm..it wasn't really shuo shuo er yi..but maybe it was at the wrong time that we talked abt such stuff..cos i can't put awareness into action yet! both of which are objectives of yellow ribbon project! my project! that you slept during the presentation! and asked abt stuff we've alr touched on! whoops. anyway, after that i had the best sleep in i think months..and woke up to an urge to blog and a yummylicious lunch! food is the central word for bookout! yea man.

anyway, out for lunch! and then carry on the challenge to finish my project and assignment. (DAMN i sound excited!)

ラベル: juicy update, spontaneous rant

a statistical list of factors to consider mass comm

2 presentations.
2 hours.
112 slides.
1706 words.
2 retorts.
1001 questions.
0.000000248925 clear mind.
0.999999751075 dead brain.
1 group report.
1 peer evaluation.
1 individual report.
2 assignments.
55 pages.
2 weeks.
5 papers.
10 hours.

0 sleep.

i am in communications studies. welcome.

ラベル: spontaneous rant

ramblings. serious ramblings.

hmm, it's 10/03's american bday tdy. i wonder if anyone else rmbed. sigh, anyway. life pretty much sucks. i try to give and take as much as i can, to the extent that i feel ridiculous sometimes..yet it always feels i'm on the losing end. it's the same with everything in life. i haven't really eaten my mum's cooking in like..months? and some things have been lost forever..and i can't be bothered to get them back anymore. cos what's the point. they will just drift away agn. i won't be able to finish that cross stitch. cos that motivation is lost and it won't come back..at least not for a long time. superficiality is the word of varsity life. all the shit abt life can't be better is, well, really shit. i just want to give everything. and everyone. up. to have some time for myself? i sometimes wonder why i go home on wkends..do i even get to see my family? they're all busy with their own stuff. and i lug my stuff every wk for what? nothing's washed or replaced. nothing's the same anymore. time blands everything. sparks fizzle. banners get teared down. ppl neglect greetings. the world is deaf. but stains will never go away. such is the irritatingness of life. with the invention of dinner. i hate uni.

ラベル: spontaneous rant