for the future me

pulsing, acty, with periods of activity and in-. don't think i've had such an aimless hols before. maybe it's just right before i plunge myself into the world of 9 to 6, 5 days a wk. shudders.

it wasn't long before i was reminded agn, how restrictive working life is. no more 3- or 4-day wks, no more 4-hr lunch breaks, or aftn naps in btw lessons, or having the start of the day at noon. damn. think i'm just gna work and sleep for the whole 6 months. i so very need it.

hmm. saw kenny's yunnan shirt when htg went out tt day. it says sthg like sees the unseen, hears the unheard, touches the untouched. how difficult that would be. but it is so very heartwarming if anyone could. (: and very much wished for.

oh well..i didn't blog cos i didn't know when to start. in fact, i haven't written what has happened in my hols yet. haha. i suppose when stuff happens, there wasn't time to record it and when it's over, so is the mood to tell abt it. or maybe, i just don't wanna talk abt it. bleah.

it's just...some things are best left unspoken..and felt with the heart. sometimes that's the point. if it has to be vocalised, it would have been better off left as a doubt..a mystery..or a possibility. does anyone know what i'm talking abt? haha. well anyway, that's when speculating is better than asking. xD

xmas is coming~ and so is the end of hols. perhaps i do wanna start being busy and getting buried in work and stress and not have an idle mind. cos it's so very dangerous. argh. so maybe all the things i've done/not done during this period of time was an illusion. that's not really me. bleah. i need to focus my purpose in life.

so there. this post serves nothing but to warn myself not to have such an empty hols ever agn. if there will be another one. sigh. grad yr is scary. i dun wanna face it. hiro! stop time!

yay!! i have a baobambam!! thanks bombie! xD

ラベル: spontaneous rant