for the future me

and so i've endured one week of school..one week of full lectures despite them being the first..one week of untimely lesson and break periods..and one week of spasms of stress. and to add on to it, it seems that the more unfriendly the lesson is on my timetable, the more interesting it is..but the more interesting it is, the more creatively-challenging it is..and thus, i'm very very confused indeed. let me repeat the qn posed to us the other day at PI briefing. "would you do what you're good at, or what you love?" assuming they are not the same thing as with a common commoner like me, but if it is the case for anyone then congratulations all the same, i'd put my answer down in the title of this post. and incidentally, it was the 'correct' answer..in mentality i suppose. i guess that's why ppl in CS are where they are now. if not some of them can jolly well be fine lawyers, sociologists, business ppl..

and SO....that kinda answers my own qn..to continue enduring what i had endured for this past wk..in hope that as i enjoy what i do, it would negate the inconveniences in my life, the opportunity costs, and worse, maybe a suffering GPA. O_o arghhh.

as i'm telling my angel now, my social circle is really limited..is that really the fate of a jc kid? haiz..just at xiuxiu's party alone, i have some sort of link to someone at every table other than her family one..one is my CS friend, one is my hall fren, one is sec schmate, and then there's yc n cheryl..yc leh!! so no link to xiuxiu still can bump into him..in fact..most of the ppl i know in uni have some sort of link to me..like my junior date in hall camp last yr..he's one yr older..and we were in the SAME JC AND SEC SCH and we've never seen each other in our lives..and we had to meet in hall and it HAD to happen that he becomes my jr date..life's too uncanny and unpredictable sometimes..like the meeting times for everyone in our lives were very much pre-arranged. argh..but small as it is, i hope it's a powerful social circle i have..seeing that they're more or less the top 20% of the brains of our age..so i shd make the best of it rite?

sigh..i've been feeling a strange sense of emptiness abt Harry Potter..perhaps cos now i know there's nothing more to look forward to..whether it's the next book or the fact that i'm still halfway thru a book..both long-term and short-term hopes have been dashed..so i guess it's just the movies left. frankly, i've always been torn whenever i'm reading the book..i wanna read slower so that there's something to read the next time, but i also wanna read faster to get to the ending..to know what everyone else knows. and i'm dreading the movie..after the experience with the 5th. like i said..it was shockingly disjointed. but i can't give a better suggestion so i should just shut up.

hall 16 is a dream come true. if i could just put down my guard for a moment.

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