for the future me

omg! shdn't have gone friendster to look at ppl's photos..argh! i saw the 6/1 ghost! even though i wasn't at her page! (ok, i think only my sisters will know wth i'm talking abt) ahhh..i need to collect back my 魂. excuse me.

and YAY!! can't say what for yet, but all the same! YAYYYY~~~! after so many days of hard work, it's done! completed! ready for refining! woohooooo~~

well well, going thru one round of friendster is..really 大开眼界. everywhere, everyone is full of surprises. it's the sudden pang of realising everyone has changed so much, and how we haven't been keeping in contact. the only thing that hasn't changed though, is the 6/1 ghost. still as eerie.

anyway, really feel abit shocked by how differently ppl have turned out even though we have been thru the same 6 or 4 or even 2 years of school..same class even. the same troubles, the same issues we had are now non-existent..those memories and times never to come back or repeat themselves.

我们真的长大了. the line separating 大人的事 and 我们的事 are getting more faded. we're having/doing what the adults have/do, if we aren't already one. we're learning how to take care of our parents, instead of the other way round. we settle our own bills. we plan for the future. we're dealing with serious relationships. every other guy drives to class outings, and every other friend is employed in some way. credit/debit cards settle the bill. instead of 小弟/小妹 we're now 小姐 or 老板. and last but not least of what i can name off my mind now, drinking and smoking is a common thing.

sigh, the things we used to call vices dun seem so bad anymore. the fact that we once used to think we aren't growing up fast enough now seems so silly. and the assurance we had as a kid that somehow ppl will always solve problems for us is being reversed.

it's not obvious, cos it slowly creeps up to u. it's like 案发现场躲猫猫. it's right in your face, but u dun realise it. only when u find it, then u recall it has been screaming at u to notice it.

maybe it's me..but i really think ppl are getting more childish nowadays. like, i recall how 21-year-olds behaved when i was young, and they were really like adults. like any other adult. or maybe it's cos i saw everyone older than me as a full-fledged adult. but still. i compare myself with school kids nowadays..and i'm really quite certain we were more mature than them when we were their age. sigh, is it cos kids are becoming more pampered nowadays?

i loveee star chinese movies! watched soooo many movies in just a few days man! and the most disappointing one is, i regret to say, 父子..despite it being regionally acclaimed whatsoever, with the numerous awards it won. it's so boring!! argh! i tried to appreciate it. i really did! but really..in the end i watched my 周日八点党 instead. zzz. but i'm happy tdy! cos it was showing 宝贝计划 at dinnertime! and it helped that i had a yummy dinner too! :D

ok, i've accepted that my special sem results is worth celebrating. so, anyone?
-creek creek creek- ok, the crickets agn.

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