dun get me wrong, i dun mean it in a bad way..but thru some ppl, i see for myself how unexpected BGRs can be formed, and how some ppl, who in others' eyes are clearly beyond the boundaries of being friends, are keeping their distance..

of cos, when i was a freshie, i had my own share of temptations and confusions (notwithstanding the possibility of reciprocating of cos), but in the end, fortunately, they remain as what they are - tempations and confusions only - and not developing me into a different or worse person.

i think, for the past year, bam and i had our fair share of tears and fears..both from each other and also from ourselves..but fortunately agn, they did not develop into threats that could have marred our feelings for each other..threats that couples often give in lieu of their own fear and insecurity..

i dare not say how long we will last..but at least..for the time that we are together..our relationship is based on respect, toleration and understanding (though i cannot claim to have achieved these as well as bam..), and i believe..is what a relationship should be..cos love is never enough..

i dunno why i'm saying all these tonite..but i know it all came to me when i realised entering uni really changes alotof things..regardless for better or for worse..depending on whose stand u're taking..but i'm glad it didn't affect me and my stable life..or rather..i chose not to risk my stable life for an uncertain future..and luckily for me..after seeing my life for the past year..i'm glad i made the right choice..and credits to bam for influencing me the right way..as always.. (:

being a senior and seeing history repeat itself helps alot in telling the course of nature..until sometimes it's not at all difficult to tell what the future will be..all it takes is some observation and memory..

but whatever it is, i'm grateful to bam for turning my life out to be so much better than if i only had myself to manage it..simply cos he is bam..he thinks, he plans, and he does things for two ppl..hee :D

am i making you jealous? too bad..cos i'm pebbles..and you're not..

ラベル: innermost feeling, motivational post