did the above paragraph worry you? or excite you. if "you" are the former, congrats. you deserve my blog. and congrats to myself, i believe there is no latter. cos i dun have such ppl in my life. (:

no, i didn't lie. we did have an insanely ridiculous raising of voices in the mrt cos we were both tired. on the eve of our 9th month. but well, we both know it was a mad stint i guess. and didn't bother abt it.

sometimes, all it takes is a reminder to yourself abt what you have, as compared to what ppl had. i realised i never stopped to collate all the memories, cos they aren't really memories to me. technically they are of cos, with each passing of time. but it's just so hard to realise, that sometimes we do silly things like getting jealous and growing all too sensitive. mistakes i made in my sweet seventeen. silly ones too, like suspecting the wrong person.

if some prophecies were meant to be self-fulfilling, do we have a choice? and do we realise that whether we go all out to prevent it, or do nothing to wait for it, it will all result in the same way, cos you know it? but anyway it's miserable, cos it's like knowing that you will get bad grades before the exam.

and i might just end up having no long-anticipated holidays. sigh. cos i'm gna take modules then. wish me luck. (:

ラベル: innermost feeling